That’s the best word to describe my mindset right now.
I share an office with five men. I used to have another female in here but yesterday was her last day. I feel insufficient without her.
When the guys talk about the game last night, politics, wood, garage doors, motors, tie rods, etc. I don’t feel like conversing. When they eat their lunches crunching, eating with their mouths open or clicking their pens or just breathing I want to scream.
I feel invisible and like I don’t belong here without her. I seem overly dramatic to you I’m sure. It just feels like I’m alone on my own island over here at my desk. I can’t shoot her a look and roll my eyes about whatever the douche canoes are talking about. She got me. We got each other.
It doesn’t help that it’s super Slooooooooooooow at work lately either. It feels like watching paint dry. I try to occupy myself by reading blogs, shopping on line, looking at old muscle cars I wish I could buy but there’s only so much of that I can do. I miss being needed around here.
I’m looking for another job too. Maybe something will come up that I might enjoy. A girl can dream right?