Incomplete

That’s the best word to describe my mindset right now.

I share an office with five men. I used to have another female in here but yesterday was her last day. I feel insufficient without her.

When the guys talk about the game last night, politics, wood, garage doors, motors, tie rods, etc. I don’t feel like conversing. When they eat their lunches crunching, eating with their mouths open or clicking their pens or just breathing I want to scream.

I feel invisible and like I don’t belong here without her. I seem overly dramatic to you I’m sure. It just feels like I’m alone on my own island over here at my desk. I can’t shoot her a look and roll my eyes about whatever the douche canoes are talking about. She got me. We got each other.

It doesn’t help that it’s super Slooooooooooooow at work lately either. It feels like watching paint dry. I try to occupy myself by reading blogs, shopping on line, looking at old muscle cars I wish I could buy but there’s only so much of that I can do. I miss being needed around here.

I’m looking for another job too. Maybe something will come up that I might enjoy. A girl can dream right?

XO

Published by lennonliberated

The "About" me section is the first thing I look for when a blog catches my eye when scrolling through the discovery section of WP. Yet, it scares the living fuck out of me to have to sum up in detail this section of my very own blog. Why? Because whatever I write, you might be hooked or bored to tears. Actually, you're probably already bored to tears by now. So let me get to it then..... By the way, I used to have a blog called Fabulous With Glitches so some of this might sound familiar. Friends might describe me as the life of the party yet secretive. I tend to keep things inside that trouble me. I've been self-reliant all of my life and I don't like to show weakness or that something worries me. Holding back has led me to seek refuge here. I can write out my thoughts and feelings so that it frees up my mind. It seems like my mind is open 24/7 like a gas station and just never turns off the open sign. I grew up in the south and come from the typical opinionated southern christian parents. Well, they're very involved now in church. Growing up, my parents weren't necessarily "present" in my life. They were around and did the best they could I suppose. I'm grateful for everything they have contributed in my life. I know that it could've been much worse. As they say, I wouldn't be who I am if I didn't grow up the way that I did. Gritty is a good word to describe me as well. I've had to speak up and defend myself throughout my life. I'm confident and a bit headstrong. I have two cats and I adore them needless to say. Their names are Franklin and Farrah. Yes, I consider myself a crazy cat lady, what's it to ya? You will see pictures of them throughout my blog I'm sure :) Welcome and thank you so much for stopping by and peaking into my safe place full of random thoughts. XO

2 thoughts on “Incomplete

  1. My office environment is nearly the exact opposite. Over busy and consumed. Ten women and me. All direct reports. A couple of guys scattered around occasionally, but they’re home office based. Way too much idle chit chat as a diversion. I’m easily strung into girl talk because I have no choice … and, I kind of like it.

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